Day 6 of My Redemption Journey: Trusting in God's Purpose

Embracing redemption on Day 6 of my journey, knowing all things are possible when trust is placed in God's hands.

I woke up with a heavy spirit. I needed answers on some major projects, and I woke up with them on my mind (bad habit). Ultimately, it is my prayer that I continue trusting in God's purpose even in the waiting. I know that I will get the answers I need.

Transforming my morning routine with a supercharged oatmeal recipe, a symbol of newfound strength and nourishment.

I made oatmeal this morning. It was not bad, but it was not particularly good either. It was too thick, and I must get used to those oats. Quite different from McDonald’s oatmeal – the only oatmeal that I like. In fact, it was because of McDonald’s oatmeal that I started eating oatmeal. The oatmeal I made was too thick and not sweet – at all, even after I added the molasses, raisins, and apples. Lunch was the final of my left-over vegetables, did not get a chance to make my salad (new recipe). Dinner will be salmon and sweet potato. I got some leftovers I want to finish before starting my new recipes.

At work I took the stairs, even made some extra trips and I only had three bags, a lot easier to manage. 

Tonight, I focused on prepping and preparing for lunch and dinner for Tuesday. I had to check my attitude again tonight. I was tired and did not have the mental, emotional, or physical energy for doing anything new. So, I compromised with myself. I did not juice anything tonight, instead I prepared my “big salad,” all raw materials (no nuking), with avocados. I called my daughter, and she walked me through how to open and slice it. I hated the texture and wanted to wash it off – I didn’t.

Savoring the simplicity and freshness of a green salad, a reminder of embracing new habits on my path of growth and faith.

I diced it in the salad so the small pieces would blend in well, so I did not have to see them while I ate my salad. My salad looked so pretty. Interesting that the recipe did not include cucumber or tomato. I cannot remember the last time I ate a salad with no meat (my favorite is the fried chicken salad from Zaxby’s). I normally would include chicken, shrimp, crab, or salmon. I am shaking from the thought of what I am missing, trying not to cry. I tasted a piece of the avocado and wanted to gag. What is it about this fruit that has people loving it so – it is so bland!!

Besides the salad, I made an anticancer vinaigrette salad dressing. Got to get used to this apple cider vinegar. It did not turn out too bad, again something new and something I must get used to.

In closing, I do not know why my mood was so exhausted. Part of the challenge I know is I internalize everything I do, which is partly due to being in control and having it done perfectly, two challenges I promise you that I have been working on for a long time. I blame it on caring too much about who I am, what I do, how I do it and how I like to present it. I am results driven, sometimes to the detriment of myself.

Since the start of this journey, I have been too focused on what I am losing and what I am giving up. I am doing what I can in the natural (my part), to live longer. As I continue to lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the LORD, Which made heaven and earth, I must mentally and emotionally look at the benefits of WHY I am doing what I am doing: PURPOSE. Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee. I must keep my mind STAYED on HIM.